Wednesday, February 01, 2006

This is your time, leave nothing to chance

"Who never left home, who never stroke out, to find a dream and a life of their own........wide open spaces room to make the BIG mistake. [he] needs new face and knows the high states"-Dixie chicks

Y'all I'm freaked out. I'm moving like 4 weeks from now and I'm nervous. Mr. play it safe, is not playing it that safe anymore. I have so many issues with this move, but it's needed. Good reasons: I have a job (well, internship...with the chance of full-time directly after internship ~70% of us will become full-time), I desire the change and really want it. I've been in my current town for 22 yrs and it's not that grand. I'm over it. Bad reasons: I have yet to decided on place, which is insane. Two problems...I will have to travel up there again. First, I really don't feel like spending all that money on gas, but I don't have a choice. Second, I trying to figure out if I need to take a sublease or not. I'm not pleased about the sublease. It won't be in my name, b/c she can't transfer it to finish out her lease, so they could kick me out at any give time, not a good look. Plus, the apartment is really small, but it's cheap and downtown. If I take a lease and I don't get hired. I will have 3.5 months of rent to pay without the job. Very risky!

Playing~ "Beauty is her name"-Dru Hill I use to have this crush on this girl and this was her song. lol high school, high school. Then, I decided not to go to prom with her. I wasn't the place for "christians" to be. I missed my darn prom!

"I would be pissed off, if I wasn't being pissed on"-Me

I was mad like 3-4 hours ago at my current financial state. Then, I had to realize I should be mad at myself. Forgot about everyone who said they were sending me money and didn't. I am responsible for my own financial well being. I did't want to take a "serious" job b/c I was going to be here for two months, so I want to take on a casusal one. I filled out like 4 or 5 applications and went to about 10 places. For some reason people aren't hiring and if they were they decided not to hire me. Outside of one, which I couldn't take because somehow I qualified for a job outside of my home town. Well, I need to take my behind to somebody's place of employement and get hired. I realize, if I moved I would be dead broke after paying rent. Heck, if I had enough to pay. It's expensive to move. Rental truck ($310), gas (~$50), application fee (~$25), rent(~$550), etc.

I've been praying for like 2 months now and I feel like I should go. It's life obstacles that make me like oh God what am I thinking. We could walk on water if we didn't doubt. Atlanta here I come.

Playing~ "Emotional rollercoaster"-Vivian Green (how fitting for this to come on. I have my music playing randomly)

R.I.P. Mrs. King...we are losing some great people. It's time for us to step up to the plate and carry the charge they once carried.


At 10:22 AM, Blogger poetically inclined said...

thanks for stopping by
once again..i can relate. change can be scarey. but it's neccessary it makes us stronger & grow.
remember to stay in prayer & keep your head up...will check back
to see how your move goes...


At 3:06 PM, Blogger Clay said...

good luck on your move - it is all part of the process ...

At 5:48 AM, Blogger DizYaBoy said...

growin' up is scary man .... trust me ...

many times ... i wish i was 12 again. (wink)

At 10:39 AM, Blogger Ski said...

change is GOOD! enjoy this new phase of your life.

At 3:03 PM, Blogger LUVIN ME said...

Change is good. Just welcome it, and hope for the best.


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